My Mid-Life Crisis

Okay, so I'm probably way too young for a mid-life crisis, but I can't describe what's going on as anything else. So in my Young Womens calling, I think I do an okay job, but I am where I need to be and am I doing everything I can, probably not. So I was working on my Personal Progress, and for one of my ten hour projects, I auditioned for a musical. The second I walked out of my audition I wished that I could have had a second chance, because honestly, the singer I was in the audition was not the singer that I used to be. I was shy, I was quiet, it was weird. But then, when was the last time I needed to project and let myself known that I was a soloist and that I really could sing, probably high school. The longer the musical went, the more I realized that I've really just let my talents go. I don't sing like I used to, and I'm not really sure why, because it's something that really makes me happy. I also don't play the piano like I used to. I can still play and sightread fairly well, but I'm not what I was, and I'm certainly not improving. In fact, I don't think I'm at the piano for even an hour a week. So I've decided to start piano lessons, be accountable to someone to practice, and really kick up my skills a notch.
Along with that I'm also realizing that I'm just not a good friend. My very best friend in high school, we were inseparable, we talked about everything, we were there for each other through quite a bit of stuff, and the last time I spoke to her was months ago, and even then, we run out of things to say within 10 minutes. Then there's my very first true friend once I was married. It was one of those situations where Nick clicked with her husband just as well as I had clicked with her. It was pretty much guaranteed that if it was a weekend we were having dinner together at one of our houses. I learned some great lessons from this friendship, and I knew I had made a best friend. Yet, I can't tell you the last time I talked to her, e-mailed her, asked her how her day was, even let her know that I still care. So then I'm thinking, what about my friendships and relationships now, will I keep them, will I work on them, what? So I don't even know that this is a mid-life crisis, just a realization of myself and that I really do need to be better. So here's my resolve, I'm going to be a better friend, I'm going to let people know I care about them, I'm going to develop and use my talents more, and hopefully this will help me be a better friend, wife, and mother. So there's my mid-life crisis. Does anyone else have moments like this where they just realize quite a few things they're not happy with about themselves? I'm up for any tips.

On another note, Nick finished the semester yesterday, thank goodness, Lainee and I really missed him, he's just had so much homework and studying lately. So now he's looking for an internship for the summer. He's sent out countless resumes and had a few interviews, he has two more today. Please keep him in your prayers! So hopefully he'll find one and all goes well for the summer, then the fall semester, then I've got a college graduate! YAY! I'm so proud of him, he really works hard to be a really good student for me and Lainee, and I just love him!